But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart. – Luke 2:19
This may be a stretch, and I know our stories are in no way comparable, but I couldn’t help but relate to Mary this Christmas season.
I think it is the judgement more than anything. I am at peace with my decisions. I love being a mother regardless of the circumstances. But I know others have opinions.
Sometimes this weighs heavier on me than others.
And sometimes I feel alone. Treasuring all the moments with my son and pondering them in my heart.
But it should be our hearts.
I had a wonderful first Christmas with Lincoln.
But maybe all holidays with him will be bittersweet.
Always wanting more for him.
Not in possessions- but in life.