Saturday Recap

Wakeup, cuddle time in mommy’s bed.  Which is actually me trying to get an extra few minutes of sleep while Bowen eats and Lincoln jumps/hits/wrestles me until I get out of bed.  It’s fun.

Then we cleaned and had a dance party all at the same time.

Played blocks.

Read the book, Moo Baa La La La about 20 times.  Someone please ask me to recite it sometime, I would love to show off my mommy skills.

Nap time for everyone!  Hooray!

Shot some hoops.

Went to Walmart because we needed to get out of the house.

Found pillow cases on clearance for my quickie sewing project.  Ran into a friend.  Bought Surf’s Up per her recommendation for 5 bucks.  Made a decision to have a Movie Night.  Picked up some pizza rolls for dinner.  Left Walmart.  Came home.  Warmed oven.  Popped in said pizza rolls.  Sewed together all the pillow cases to make a giant movie pillow. Turned on the movie.  Ate the pizza rolls.  Laid and played on the giant movie pillow.

Bath, book, brush, and bed for Linc.

And now its mommy and Bo chill time.  And after checking the tv guide it appears I will be watching Prison Wives.  Don’t judge.  A documentary about women crazy enough to marry murderers in prison is a quality way to spend my very little free time.

My Valentine Babies

Top 10 Things I LOVE About My Boys:

1. They make life fun.

2. Lincoln’s dimples.

3. Bowen’s big ‘ol lips.

4. The fact that Linc would rather watch basketball than cartoons.

5. Bo’s ability to already sleep 5 hours straight.

6. All the sloppy kisses I get every week.

7. Every high-five, cheer, and hug I receive just for being their mom.

8. Morning cuddle time.

9. Late night giggles.

10. And all the little moments I can’t put into words.  The privilege of raising two beautiful babies is more than I deserve and I thank God for them every day.

Beautiful Music.

Lincoln and his dad making “beautiful music” in the kitchen.

Weekend Update: Whats new with us.

We have meshed into a brilliant summer routine.  We wake up around 7:00, Lincoln plays, eats, and then goes down for a nap around 9:30.  This is when I get to workout!  I workout for about an hour, then maybe get some homework done.  And then Linc wakes up.  Then we go out and do something, maybe the dog park maybe shopping, the options are endless.  We get back home around 2:00 and it is time for the second nap of the day, and this one we take together!  Oh glorious summer.  We sleep for about an hour and a half and then get up ready to go again.  The afternoons we spend with our friends or family.  You gotta love summer!

Kato has settled into his surroundings.  He is more of a puppy than we originally thought.  He is still a little uncoordinated and LOVES to play.  Think baby kitten that weighs 60 lbs, that is Kato.

I am consistently working out again, so that makes me feel much better.

Lincoln and I cannot get enough of summer watermelon, cantaloupe, and pineapple.

I am supposed to close on my house May 31st.  Cross your fingers.

Pools open this weekend, so Lincoln and I are going to be fishes soon!!!

Thank you Uncle Mike.

If you don’t know already know, my former sniper marine brother, Mike, watches my son during the day and has lived with us since Christmas.    Linc adores Mike more than anyone in the world but there have been several very amusing moments watching these two figure each other out.  This is a conversation I overheard this morning.

“Lincoln, did you know that water is a magnifier…”

My thoughts: How cool Mike is giving Linc a science lesson, what a great Uncle.  But then it continued…

“So, if you want to impress a girl with the size of your wiener, do it in water because then it will look even bigger.”

Thank you Uncle Mike.

And like poof, he was gone…

Lincoln is at his dad’s again this Saturday.

It is weird sitting here not having a small child interrupt me every few seconds.  You think it would be a pleasant change for a day, but really it is not.

I miss him.

Lincoln goes to his dad’s house every other Saturday from 8 am to 8 pm, and then he also has an evening every week.

All day Saturdays are still pretty tough for me.

I actually go through I period of loss and sadness when he first leaves, followed by a period of productivity (it is amazing how much I can get done by myself), and then by the end of the day I just miss him.

I think this will get better.  We just started this twelve-hour plan a month ago, so I am still adjusting.

I just miss him.

Today I do have a few fun thing planned.  Uncle Mike’s birthday is today so we have tickets to go the KC Sporting soccer game.  Our team is really good this year, plus we have a new amazing stadium.  It is basically going to be a going away party/birthday party for mike.

He is leaving us.

He starts college at ASU May 15th.  We will miss him, but a today is not a day to focus on him leaving…

Today is a day to celebrate that he is here and my mother popped him out 27 years ago!!!  Yay mom!

My hope is that I can get over missing Lincoln enough to have a good time tonight with everyone at the soccer game.  I think I should be able to but I really do have a lot of anxiety being away from my little Linc for so long?

Do any of you other parents experience this separation anxiety when you are away from your children?  Single parents, is sharing your child/children difficult or do you eventually look forward to some time alone (I know single parenting can be very demanding)?

And he crawls.

And he crawls…

Someone please remind me why I was so excited for him to hit this milestone?

I must really be that naive.

Day one it was exciting.

Day two it was fun.

Day three…I am over it.

Over it.

And this is not a “poor me, my baby is growing up” moment.  This is a “holy hell, where has my sanity gone” moment.

Someone please tell me it gets better, and that he will get over this whole independence thing.

This is just a phase.

One day he will really enjoy going to bed.

By next week he will absolutely love sitting quietly on the couch watching Real Housewives with you.

Someone tell me something like that.  Lie to me, I don’t care.

Please excuse me while I go bang my head against the wall.  And by bang my head against a wall I mean fold all the laundry that I didn’t get to because I spent all day trying to hide everything in the house.

An unusual conviction

You’re on your own. And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go…”

This is an incredibly positive and encouraging quote when beginning a journey.  But at the end of your journey, when your choices have led you astray…

it’s just pretty real.

It is not everyday you feel convicted by Dr. Seuss.

 

Weekend To-Do List

• Clean my disaster of living room
• Clean the disgusting bathroom
• Dust
• Do the dishes
• Go through my extreme tower of mail from the week and pay my bills
• Do the 3 HUGE piles of laundry from the last two weeks (that is right mom, if you are keeping track, no laundry has been done in this house since you left)
• Clean out the Gerber Vanilla Stars that spilled into my purse/diaper bag* a week and a half ago
• Make a grocery store list
• Go to Costco and see if I can find anything on said list for cheap
• Go to Walmart Market for the rest
• Put away groceries (I loathe this)
• Fold laundry (also loathe)
• Put laundry away (lets be real this will not happen, and the clothes will remain folded on the love seat for a week before I get sick of it and actually walk them a room away to put them into drawers)
• Make baby food for the week (a little ambitious considering I have been pretty lazy about this lately)
• Drive to the gym and cancel my membership because I just bought a treadmill (yay!)
• Touch base with friends in some way shape or form (probably lunch or something)
• Find a few minutes for myself (check, this is it)
• Do all this while keeping a baby happy, healthy, entertained, well fed, and napped

Welcome to the weekend…

Whoever said this was time off was crazy.

Literally

crazy.

At least someone is getting some rest…(my brother’s dog, Dragonlips)

 

A Saturday morning routine.

Thank goodness it is the weekend.  I need some time to just veg, be with my son, clean the house, pay my bills, go grocery shopping, and regain my sanity so that I can keep going for another 5 days until the weekend comes again.

Don’t get me wrong I LOVE my job, but it is still a job.  I still have to wake up early, it can still be stressful, and it is still work!  Love it or not.  I love the weekends more.

I am already feeling slightly restored.  Linc and I slept in until about 8:00 a.m. and now we are settling into our Saturday morning routine.

Play in bed.

Feed little Linc.

Turn on the television to some home improvement show and chill while Lincoln plays on the floor.

Ahhh….

I don’t know what it is about a home improvement show on a Saturday morning but I think I have developed an addiction.  I don’t think I could watch these shows at any other time during the week, but Saturday morning, glorious.

My favorite is Moving Up.  The premise of the show is that it follows three families as they “move up” into larger homes, the trick is they are moving into each others homes so in the end the families go back to their old home and see how the new inhabitants changed it.

Typically they hate it.

It is awesome.

So that is what I am doing right now.

By the way, Lincoln has now started pulling himself up on the coffee table, which is also cheap entertainment for me.  I love watching him try to work his way up there.

Crazy little boy.

I love watching him grow up.  At times at can be bittersweet as I miss the last stage of his life, but it is so fun to watch him learn new things it is hard to be too upset about the fact that my baby is becoming a boy.